malice (a sestina)

malice

Malice hiding behind a broken heart;

It makes one wonder: is this cruelty justified?

Even if this frozen void of winter gray

Where you sit petrified in stony silence

Is the creation of the one who punched a hole

Through your fragile, thin, white paper life

Does that mean he should rule your life?

He has no dominion here, over your heart.

Why live in this frozen, rotten, aching hole?

Is this the only place that you feel justified

In the place of irreproachable silence;

Where no voice can pierce the foggy gray

Mist that covers your ears and dyes you gray

Like the eyes that gaze out onto your life,

And survey all of it with unfathomable silence,

Which screams for someone to heal your heart;

For someone to say your pain is justified

As you hide yourself in this pitch black hole.

Here, a place you have dug for yourself, this hole,

Where the snow and wind blow soft and gray,

Drifting over you and your wish to be justified

In your hatred that is consuming your life

And driving a shard of icy pain into your heart;

Making it impossible to break the frozen silence

And you have built this fortress-like barrier of silence

With walls so thick that it could never have a hole

Unlike the ashen ground where you sit; broken heart

Beating feebly as the cold wind blows the gray

Snow and dust against the wall protecting you from life.

But in your frozen agony you wish to be justified.

And so to satisfy your thirst to be justified

You will break this oppressive and forced silence

And bring the foundation of his damnable life

Crumbling and crashing into this rotten hole

To freeze and scream in the eternal gray

And you will watch as it breaks his heart

In the same way he destroyed your justified heart

And left you in this chilled landscape of grey silence

Where, to save your life, you cried yourself a hole.

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A sestina is a poem of six stanzas of six lines, where the last word of each of the six lines is repeated, but the order is mixed up. There is also a three line stanza at the end which uses the six words in the three lines. Hope you enjoy.